Funny how we never really appreciate what we have, even when it is staring us in the face. Its only when someone points it out that you realise just how lucky you are. I am lucky, I am in love, I am educated, and I am free to do and say what the hell I choose. How much luckier could I be? Yes there are many trivial things that are "wrong" and could be better, but that's not the full story. I just hope that until I forget how lucky I am I will be able to persuade those people that I love the most that I really do appreciate them, for everything they are and everything they aren't, for everything they can and will be. Because that makes it all easier doesn't it? Knowing that you are appreciated - and that all you hard work gets noticed, even if its just by one person.

It like they say: to the world you are one person - but to one person you are the world. I know who my one person is.



Silly Little Blonde

So, on the 12th of March I became an Auntie to William, who weighed 5lb 15oz and is the most adorable little man ever. He is now the fourth musketeer in my life. Although I think it will be a while before he starts rescuing me, indeed I think I may have to rescue him a fair few times first. I think I will enjoy being an Auntie very much, but seeing him makes me realise how little I really want children of my own. Babies are all very well and good but at the end of the day I like to go home where there is no crying, and no sick, and no nappies. Its very nice for those who do want that and I can totally understand it. But its just not for me. At least not right now anyway. I have too much to do, a life to live. I want to travel and see the world, and help people, and do some amazing once in a life time type things. Can't wait for Uni to be over so my real life can start, and I can stop writing essays.

So for now Auntie is plenty for me. It may always be that way, who knows?

Silly Little Blonde

So yesterday was my twentieth birthday, which I am aware for my many 20-something friends was a birthday that they dreaded. Your no longer a teenage and of course its a mere 20 years to forty. But actually so far I am rather loving being 20. My main problem with being a teenager was that people are always discrediting your ideas and opinions on the basis that you are "just a teenager", and so being 20 really nails the final nail in the coffin for that argument. And also for much of my teens I really wasn't too happy. I feel for bad bad men, I was desperately unhappy with what I saw in the mirror, I had all this plans which I had no way of even getting started and most of my freedom was wrapped up in relying on other people; which I took no pleasure in what-so-ever. Now don't get me wrong my parents are and will always be amazing people who have done everything that they could for me, and nearly everything I have ever asked them too, but still during my teenage years I didn't like relying on other people.

But now, here I am at 20 years old, the beginning of what I have read, are my freedom years. And i really am looking forward to them and plan to grasp every opportunity with both hands. I have a wonderful, loving, caring, giving, sharing, drop dead gorgeous boyfriend who makes me go weak at the knees; and on top of all of that is my best friend and confidante and partner in crime, and without whom none of my future and past adventures would be worth a damn. I have my car, little Suzy Kee, I have my friends and my parents and sister (who I also consider to be one of my best friends), and my nephew (17 days to go). So I have began this decade whole heartedly happy with my life, and I plan to see it out that way. Because this decade I am going to really live, see the world and hopefully change it just a little bit. And I am starting that change with my world. From today I am going to be as happy as I can with myself, and start loving myself.

Because Oli does, and most things he does are really a very good idea. So there, that's where I am starting.


Silly Little Blonde

For a few years now I noticed that no one else seems to share my birthday. Alot of people have birthdays near mine, and I mean ALOT of people. But no one has my actualy birthday. So the other day in a desperate attempt to not do any more uni work i decided that I would look it up on the internet, and as usual my internet browsing led me to wikipedia, where you can look up any day you like, even ones that don't exist like February the 31st. Anyway of the famous people born on my birthday there was just one name that I recognised. I would never have know who he was had my best friends Dad not been into astronomy. Anyway, that name was Sir Patrick Moore. So then, for the sake of completeness, I looked him up too. I knew he was into astronomy (like I said before) but i then came across his TV show - The Sky at Night - which i think I will start watching. I also read a bit about his life. Apprantly, and this could be wrong becasue *shock* wikipedia is often wrong, he was once engaged to marry a nurse during WWII. And then one day a bomb dropped on the ambulance she was in and she died. And he never ever married anyone else. How sad and tragic and romantic all at the same time. It made me really glad that I have Oli. And I think most people need to realise how special it is to have someone you love, and who loves you in your life. We all take it for granted that they will always be there, and I think its something that deserves a bit more appreciation. From us all.
So on Valentines Day I tried really hard to tell Oli this, but I don't think I did too good a job of it, so I am telling him now. I love him, and I would rather have five minutes with him than fifty years with anyone else, he is the most special, caring, amazing guy I have ever met, and I don't want to share my life with anyone else but him. And yes thats soppy and romantic, and cringe worthy of me to say so but thats how I feel and I don't care what any one else thinks. His dreams are my dreams and (I hope) vice versa.

So Oli, always remember, I Love You.
Silly Little Blonde

Wouldn't it be great if we could all apparate? We could all tumble out of bed, get dressed and then just appear at where ever it was that we needed to be? It would do the world alot of good. Driving would only be for those who really loved it, as a hobby more than anything. That way the roads would stay in better condition for longer, and there would be less traffic, there by preventing traffic jams from happening at all. Similarly people would have no need to ever be late, as they wouldn't miss buses or trains, or get stuck in the previously mentions traffic queues. It would be alot cheaper, not tax or insurance unless you really loved driving, and there would be alot less accidents. Parents wouldn't have to take there children places, they could just go by themselves, and we would all have that little bit more time for whatever we want. Whether that's sleeping, spending time with friends, squeezing in an extra hours over time or shopping. It would be amazing. And yes I have been reading Harry Potter, and yes I have done a considerable amount of driving today. Most for someone who is ungrateful to the fact that I am, in fact, trying to graduate from Uni with a half decent degree. And therefore driving about isn't very helpful when I want to finish my essay.
The only benefit to driving is the freedom.

As my dad says; the world is your cockle!

Silly Little Blonde

Funny creatures, people. We are so quick to judge other people, and yet when we are judged ourselves we don't like it. Similarly we pass comment on so many things that we don't really understand, but take such offense when people comment on us, and our beliefs or behaviours. It such a big divide amongst people, we even judge our friends and their beliefs and behaviours. And I'm not sure I am okay with that to be quite honest. So what if some people believe in heaven and hell, and some in reincarnation. And so what if some people like drinking and dancing and some people like reading and bubble baths. We don't all need a label, a person to "be". "Christian" or "Pagan", "Party Animal" or "Book Worm". We are all people. Those difference don't make us better or worse people, they make us interesting and they make us who we are. Why can't we just love that in our friends, and the people around us. Why does that have to split us into different communities. We can learn something for every person, not matter how different from us they may be - and whatever that lesson is, it's worth learning.
I have many different friends, all different and all wonderful. I have met them in many different places, at different ages and stages through my life, and they all reflect that. And from them all I have learnt something.

• Everyone, and everything deserves respect. Whether that's the person sat next to you on the bus, the lost dog at the side of the road, or the trees in the forest.
• Life is for living and you only get one chance. Enjoy it and don't let it slip away.
• We are all more than a dress size and a fashion statement. Look beyond that.
• Money is worth nothing if you don't use it for the things you love.
  
• If a task is that important someone else will always do it if you can't, or if you run out of time.
  
• Family is not a static thing, its not just your parents and your children, its whoever you want it to be.
• People like to share their knowledge. Ask questions. The more you know the more you realise you have left to learn.
• You can learn the most from the person who is the least like yourself.

These are my life lessons so far. The things that the people I have met have taught me. But there is one more.

Love yourself. Because if you don't why would anyone else?

Silly Little Blonde

I have given alot of thought to the type of thing I think I will write in my blog, so I am going to start by writing about my life at the moment, so that everyone is singing from the same hymn sheet as it were. So...my life... I read alot, and love beautiful clothes and jewellery. I also love nature and the the world of fairy folk, which i read about alot. The latest addition to my little world arrived on Friday night in the form of six adorable, if not rather noisy, puppies.

The next arrival will be my long awaited nephew (I know he can only have been awaited for 9 months, but it feels much much long). I can't wait and I am sure I will be a rather proud Auntie.
Similarly my world consists of my boyfriend, Oli who is a photographer, and quite a good one even if I do say so myself. We have many adventures and park in many places we aren't really allowed to in order for him to take the pictures that he wants to. I am at Uni at the moment but I can't wait to hit the real world. More than anything I want to be able to help people, any people really. When i get old I want to look back and know that I helped, and hopefully made a difference to at least one persons life. I also work in two jobs, one as a waitress and the other in the hospital. I love my job at the hospital, and the other pays the bills so thats fine by me.
When I grow old I want to own one of those shops that you get in sea side villages that sells fudge and rock and post cards; but not a great deal else. I also want to be able to wear beautiful clothes and have beautiful jewellery and a house pig. I know my life plan isn't strictly conventional,

But it's mine. And its perfect that way.

Silly Little Blonde